So, I have my first teaching job. It is only for the month of June but its a foot in the door. I’ve been here three days and havent seen a single student. It’s tough to think about really. I am isolated and I am the only one at the school. One thing I should mention is this isn’t your regular classroom. This is a classroom where students attend for various reasons. It might be court ordered, can’t handle a regular classroom setting, adult student trying to get their grade 12, or just can’t go to school on a regular basis. The students that I am supposed to have range in age from 14-27. When students do show up it wont be more that a few at a time. I can definitely see the value in this program that is operated by the high school in the nearby town but when there is an empty classroom it can be discouraging that’s for sure.
This lack of attendance has really got me thinking. From what I know about the students I can see why attendance can be an issue. You always hear people say sometimes there are more important issues at home in a student’s life then coming to school. Sitting here and looking around the school and the community I realize that this is even more true for some then I had ever imagined.
To many people in this community first and foremost, family is number one. Most of us would also say that but just to give an example of how much family and furthermore community mean to this place. When someone passes away, the whole community shuts down, including the school, to pay their respect to the deceased. Many of the members of this community are related, some are not, but this community is close enough that everyone feels like family.
Another thing I have heard over and over through the years is money isn’t everything. I have always agreed with this statement but today I started to think about that statement. True money isn’t EVERYTHING, but what about if money was a scarce as some families have it. Money might still not be everything but it would be a BIG thing in your life when you do receive that little bit of money to put some food on the table and maybe some new clothes.
School is important, its hard to argue that. A good education can go a long way, but sometimes getting a good education isn’t as easy as having a good teacher. When a family has to struggle to put food on the table every day, schooling gets put on the back burner. The sad thing is, not getting a good education is often why this continued cycle of poverty and issues at home never seem to end. It’s hard to get out of that cycle, get an education and get a job to be able to provide for your family.
As I sit here half way through May I have come to realize my life never seems to slow down. Upon completing my degree I thought that I would have some time to relax and think about my next move in life but that appears not to be so. There has not been much time for that. I have had to think on the go and continue on with many things on the go. Patiently waiting for my Teacher’s Certificate in the mail, first child being born, getting all moved into my new place, waiting for transcripts to be mailed, work, applying for jobs, waiting patiently for call backs, doing interviews…the list goes on. It feels like summer holidays cannot come soon enough. Among all of these things I am still hoping to get into the classroom to do some subbing for the last month of school. I’m not sure what all this is doing to me…stess? Maybe. Anxiety? definitely. The crazy thing about all of this, one thing that I have not listed above is what is really making me feel that everything is coming at me at once. I have heard everything happens for a reason. I believe this is true and I also believe that I am really being put to the test here to prove that I can handle everything that is coming at me. Some days I feel it is too much, that is why I am thankful for the supports I have in my life to keep me going. My family, my friends, and a few others sprinkled in there is what really gets me through my day and helps me keep going. I am thankful for everything that I have and for everyone that helps me out. This is the life as I know it, and one when most of all there is one thing that will also make life worth while. That reason is pictured below. I fell in love the moment I layed eyes on her. Life is busy but life is good.
Easter was more than I had expected this year. Much to my surprise I woke up Easter morning rushing to the hospital to welcome in my new baby girl. She was born April 24th at 6:37 am. She weighed in at a peanut size 6lbs 4oz. This all came as a surprise as I was not expecting to have an addition to my life until the 29th. But all is well. Logan Avery is one healthy baby girl and the best thing that has ever happened to me. Words cannot describe how excited I am about the future ahead.
I sit here and think about the past four years and what the future may hold. I cant help but be nervous and excited. I still feel as though I cannot relax and take my mind off of school until I write the one final I have on Tuesday. I am just happy the end is almost near. My future is starting to come together. I will be a dad in 16 days and I have felt pretty good with some of the interviews I have had. My most recent one had the informal feel to it which made me more comfortable and relaxed. I think the most important thing I brought to that interview was honesty. I wasn’t about to tell them things that I did not know about or did not believe them. In the end I think they appreciated that and it seemed as though I did good. I guess we will find out in a month or so if that one went good.
Okay so for those of you that know me you know I am a hockey fan. So as a hockey fan the real hockey season is beginning soon. Playoffs! So its time to start growing the playoff beard as I expect my team to go deep into the playoffs and not flop. Hate to say it about my team but we have the most over rated and over paid goalie in Ruberto Luongo. At least this year if he faulters we have a little more insurance at the back up position. Just thought I would share my excitement about the NHL playoffs. Nothing really inspirational to say today. So just vote on the poll below!